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hi. im known as angela. sometimes they call me nurse/ missy/ betty, depending on their moods. qop-ian since birth. LOM-er since 12. and as much as i bitch/complain/roll my eyes real hard, i generally love the people/ the friends/ the life i have right now. oh yeah, im only 21 though i was told i looked a tad more mature.


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Sunday, March 14, 2010 @ 10:47 PM
exams stressssssss

why am i blogging suddenly the day before my major health assessment?

stress sends you to wierd places.

last week has been hell week part one. i had exam on thurday and a MAJOR MAJOR research proposal that sapped out all the time i had! monday and tuesday in school till late. fight scream quarrel throw stuff- thank goodness the presentation part is over. now its just the 3000 word proposal left. sigh. and finished another presentation on thurday MORNING BEFORE the exam at 10am.

this week is hell week part two. health assessment tml and 8465 on wednesday, proposal submition on the same day as well. HOW?? its just killing me! night and day, there is no difference. i was so bogged down that when i went for pet's lenten retreat last friday... i went into the room and started crying within five minutes. maybe at that moment i felt so far away from God. maybe i just realise that he has been helping me and yet i didn't appreciate it. it felt like after a very long time, i came home. to HIM.

perhaps i forgot essentially why i did my advanced diploma. i wanted to help with additional knowledge. the best week was the last week of attachment for me. dealing with patients with terminal illness and feeling that connection once again to the reasons as to why i wanted to become a nurse, its a daily struggle when i face books instead of humans.

and with these two weeks fully packed i felt so guilty, especially to faith coz i haven't been spending enough time with her, missing out on a lot. when the Ho's came over to my house last wednesday while i was studying i nearly wanted to cry. sigh. all these work is turning me into an emotional freak.

gotta get back to work now

"it takes two people to make a lie. one to tell it and one who believes it."



Monday, February 8, 2010 @ 8:54 PM
first day formal attachment

its been forever since i've been called student..

wierd as it seems i relish the freedom of no responsibility for the patients and just being able to learn and ask questions made me really appreciate the status that i have now. it's not going to last very long but i cherish every moment.

it's the first time that im under another lecturer and for once i felt that i've learnt so much from her in the one hour that we spent together than in all the field visits that i've been to. short, sharp and focused she doesnt bullshit around talking nonsense and not only did i learn much from her, she reignited my passion for nursing in a way that not many people were able to.

anyways the enviornment here is really really nice. if i wasn't bonded i might have wanted to work there. not only is there an absence of politics, everyone was nice and not a single person actually said that i looked like someone owed me money or am having a black black face because thats what i usually get whereever i go for attachment... and everyone was willing to teach. have a feeling that it's gonna be a good two weeks. keeping my fingers crossed.

yoga has left me refreshed but super tired. gonna sleep now...



Friday, January 15, 2010 @ 10:00 PM
too hard too fast

went down to NUH Angiography for attachment today.

the wonders of the human heart. one beat and all the vessels of your heart are oxygenated. and it takes a precise eye to see where the blockages are so that stenting can be done. no wonder heart doctors are paid so much. with the sort of health problems we have caused by a sedentary lifestyle, the money must be rolling in like nobody's business.

went back home to sleep before bikram. alas i woke up with a feverish body and cold hand. barely made it to the bus stop before i had to stop. SO SORRY YI MON! im trying to go for yoga on saturday and sunday.

sigh have i been pushing by body too much? i know im still young and can tolerate late nights and unhealthy diet but im wondering when will be too much before my body starts saying STOP! i dont wanna wait till i get organ failure before i start doing something about it.

was rewatching the new police story again on MIO tv. goodness daniel wu is so hot when he's bad. i like.:)

till for a work filled weekend!



Thursday, January 14, 2010 @ 7:09 PM
week 13

its week 13!! stress is piling up like a pile of crap!

one of the worst of the worst assignment - research critique is OVER! the worst is yet to come- research proposal in which no progress has been made whatsoever. actually i only count four more presentations but it seems like i have 5 zillion things to do.

anyways brother's results came out. not too good but he has applied to the engineering courses that he's interested in. keeping my fingers crossed that he'll get into somewhere that he likes and stop slacking around. he's been doing that for quite a while and im getting worried. he's not getting any younger. when he finishes his education he will be quite old. but im glad he's going somewhere!!

anyways my body clock is seriously screwed up. sleeping at 2-3am everyday just to finish assignments and waking up at 7-8 in the mornings to go for lessons. its really taxing. luckily i started doing bikram yoga with the encouragement of Yi Mon. the first class wasn't too good though. i was sweating like a pig when i started the first pose because the room was heated and at the end of the lesson my whole shirt was WET. i was breathless and dizzy for a while and even fell asleep in class (the heat makes you drowsy) and jerked away when i realised that i started snoring! major embarrassment of the year. the second class wasn't so bad. the good thing after each session is that i feel so LIGHT and energetic even though i was tired before. i am FORCING myself to go as often as i can coz i wanna be really really healthy. i really do not want to waste my cash in the future on medications and hospital stays. if this yoga would keep me fit thru my whole life i don't mind doing it...

went to Holy Family for mass last sunday. it's weird really. i always felt at home at QOP where everything and everyone is familiar. the amount of time that i take to get ready for mass is another thing altogether. i don't know.. somehow i feel that i have to live up and portray a certain image there and at times it may get tiring. however when i went to Holy Family, i went there with no contacts, no make up and just concentrated on spending one hour with HIM.. i feel so... free and able to concentrate on praying.

in every age. super nice song that they sung. brought tears to my eyes when the choir sung it.

i don't know. somehow it may be a good/bad thing when the church is small, you know everyone and everyone knows your parents. sometimes it feels that im constantly being watched and though i know that it's only my imagination, it feels that if i so much as yawned in mass my parents might find out.

a good catholic girl i am most of the time. what about the side of me that loved clubbing and staying out late? am i then not the good person that i am because im NOT suppose to be out late at night?

living up to expectations is hard. so therefore i live up to my OWN expectations.



Monday, January 4, 2010 @ 12:04 AM
time for new year resolutions!!

ahhh. its been a busy christmas/ new year week...

21december - met up with the plastic angels to celebrate shuhui's 22nd bday as well as christmas gift xchange. had a simple dinner at NYDC then off to 2am dessert bar. the dessert and wine are to die for!

and finally i get to see angeline!! so happy that she has more or less fully recovered. really glad for her. and im sure a lot of people prayed for her, hence the speedy recovery... it was worrying when she took two hours to get to holland village though!

23 december- had a first dinner together as a whole class at sakura at orchard with all the crazy med-surg people. it was good fun.. as it was the last day of school before the one week break started. then we went off to St James and queued for an hour before getting in... super sian by then but the music got us all moving..:)

24 december- christmas eve. its my favourite day of the year. i don't know why. maybe it's the feeling of love in the air, or the feeling of peace that everyone i love is around me. spent the whole morning and afternoon packing the house ( for the party on christmas day) and off for dinner with the HO family. :) went to see faith unwrap her 347th tigger with a fox hoodie. and presents for the parents too. robin likes opening his present on christmas day.. so didn't get to see their reaction.. (it the thought that counts..haha)

we went to this fantastic place at cuppage plaza where they served great japanese food. baby faith charmed everyone there and as a result, we got to order great food ( the menu is in japanese with NO PICTURES whatsoever to help you..)

then it was off to QOP for mass! i love attending christmas mass at my church. and i also dont know how to explain it.. but it feels like i've come home everytime i walk into my church. faith was TERRORISED by this little girl who refused to stop playing with her at mass. (hence the sleepless night for the parents afterwards). but it was nice to see everyone. :)

25 december - this is the first year that my mother didn't say " next year we are not doing the christmas party! everytime we do it nobody wants to help" because this year, the liew family went all out to do everything. DJ FRAP people came over and we did our annual gift exchange. its nice to see everyone again, though only for a short while. helped with the packing.. and relaxed at home. what a busy day it was!

sorry monica!! was unable to go for ur party! saw the pics though. looked fun...:)

26 december- went for a quick lunch with the HO family at sakae and then out with lendl and fiona to watch avatar! everyone was raving about it, including pet who said it's a MUST WATCH. so we managed to get tix for the 2d version, which i think was pretty good already. interesting story plot but im not one to dwell on such.... realistic views of the world. it's sad, but true. maybe i get too emotionally affected by the events that occur, therefore i always felt ignorance is bliss. brought them to the nice jap place to eat again. :) they loved it too! ( lendl and his big behind getting bigger and bigger every month..)

27 december- stayed at home with my parents and my aunt to play mahjong. its been forever since i touched those tiles man! and i was really slow. (total losses: $43. ) but im preping up for CNY! once a year my gambling demon comes out!! lols

28/29/30 december- went back to sch for final clinical skills practice (who said i played all day and didn't work??) nerve wrecking stuff. had research meeting which lasted till before the fire drill and went down to united square to meet sheena and nigel and the HO family for dinner at another jap place. this time its a buffet. i ate my fill of all the pork bellies in the world and developed a belly of my own (kidding. it was already there before i started eating.) and passed sheena/nigel their present. :) thought it was very suitable for the both of them... hope you guys liked it!!

caught sherlock holmes with pet/robin as well. SUPER good, witty movie. goes to show how witty guys actually are the most attractive. this is one show where you have to drink your coffee before entering the cinema. miss one second and you'll miss a good joke. :)

31 december- went down to quincy hotel to celebrate new year's eve with the HOs/ sheena/nigel. it is a SUPERBLY nice place. went to their pool and took loads of great shots of faith with her cute watermelon swimsuit (a tad too big for her.) and tried out their sauna and steam bath (sauna good, steam bath- i'd rather go bathe.) and their TOILETRIES!!! molton brown!! i like! i think i washed my hair a good five times that day. :) then had dinner at their restaurant (modesto) and then up to the hotel room to play.... pictionary. the game escalated to silent pictionary when our darling faith had to go to sleep (if not her parents can't sleep.) and everyone went off before midnight. came back home to ten over people (all legionaries, very young, made me feel very old) and dozed off around 3 plus...

1/2 - i can't remember what happened but i lost 100 bucks at mahjong. luckily i had a cousin who is nice enough to send me back ( and laughed all the way about me losing 100 bucks)

today - went down to QOP for mass (super packed @ 1030 am) and to this nice japanese food court at city square (super cheap - just slightly above foodcourt price) and ate to our hearts content ( the liew's content, of course) and went down to PS with mummz and i GOT AN IPHONE!! man i've been lusting after this phone for sooo many months and finally its mine ( after burning a hole in my pocket of course). been playing with their applications all day long (till i forgot to continue my research critique...)

anyways down to the main topic- new year resolutions

1) lose weight (thanks for the running short/tights. im really going to do it this year!)
2) go to australia
3) love more
4) plan a great 25th anniversary mass/dinner for my parents

love more. i don't know. maybe its because i don't know what i really have till this year, when i had a sudden realization that i really am surrounded by many who truly care for me. for the last few years during christmas, it always feels a tad miserable, for im still SINGLE every chrstimas eve. this year however, i felt so loved by everyone! sure i may still be single but i had so many friends/relatives and even a god daughter who truly loves me. for me right now, its more than enough. and i thank God for the many wonderful people that he has sent to me.

you don't need 500 friends on facebook. you no need to go out everyday to prove that you have a lot of friends. what you need are a few good friends who truly care for you, who you know are truly there for you when you need a helping hand. but first, you must be the person who can weather the storm with your friends, and not run away at the first sign of trouble.

perhaps in the past, i always felt like an imcomplete person BECAUSE im not in a relationship. i guess its now that i understand that i am my own person, and i should be able to complete myself rather than wait for someone else to complete me. there are times when i felt miserable because i see people moving on to different stages of their lives (getting married, having kids) and i felt left behind. sure, i'd like to fall in love with a sensible person, but im contented with who and where i am now (minus a few pounds of course)

as for my parents, i really would like to plan a great wedding mass for them to remind them of all the reasons they married each other... :) have to start reallly soon, i had first hand experience how long it takes to plan just a simple wedding mass/lunch.... :)

happy 2010 everyone!



Tuesday, December 8, 2009 @ 4:26 PM
BIOLOGY rocks my socks!

taking time off from biology.

i've never studied SO HARD in my entire life... (well maybe in final year of poly but...) it was to the point where i wanted to watch fringe and i forced myself to sit at the table and finish my respiratory system before i called it a day.

torturous i tell you. but oh so fun.

i might have to miss the mentalist tonight as well... :(

anyways making it up by going out to see baby faith and the HOs on thursday and then movie and dinner with lendl/jas on friday. more than enough for me...:)

another test on monday.. CVS/Endocrine/Respi/Immuno. sigh. here we go again. and only four days to study!!!

going back to SGH on friday for attachment! can't wait! i miss the smells... the people.. and most importantly.. the food...:)

alright going back to my GIT...



Monday, November 30, 2009 @ 4:06 PM
this is it

pissed. im so pissed.

a whole lecture hall of people have notes but your speciality. don't you FEEL/ LOOK stupid??

frankly speaking im very disappointed with my lecturer.

late timetables, meaningless five minute presentations because of your laziness to prepare tutorials, not knowing where we are going for postings till the very last minute, going for lessons with half fuck slides which have no DEPTH.

if i wanted a recap of what year three in my diploma days feels like, i wouldn't have signed up for an advanced diploma.

in the initial stage, i thought it was because i had inadequate information/ experience as a nurse therefore i do not understand. but when every lesson bears a big question mark on my forehead, i realise its not me, its you.

instead of helping your students, you give us more work. instead of facilitating our learning, you are the one creating road blocks.

if i didn't study for lessons before hand and came with questions, i wouldnt know ANYTHING.

its pure disappointment that i write this post. people always tell me you will learn so much from an advanced diploma but frankly speaking all that i ever learnt in these past 6 weeks is the information i found for myself. i learn nothing much from your lessons. and frankly speaking, the whole class is quite tolerant of your inability to teach.

but not to give us lecture notes when YOU HAVE IT beforehand? thats bloody ridiculous.

are you helping you're students to fail? because if you are, you're doing a GREAT job at it.